Artist Spotlight – Jen Levin

Did you grow up on Totinos or Jacks frozen pizza and then one day discover how good pizza can be with a homemade crust and fresh ingredients?
I met Jen Levin a few years ago when her family moved to St Paul. When we met, I could tell in one conversation that she was what I call a “midlife creative.” I caught her sketching during the sermon at church, found out she was an expert gardener, and amazing cook (well, pretty amazing compared to me!)
The first time I was at her house, she told me that she makes homemade pizza for her family almost every Friday night. It was a Monday and they were eating the leftovers for lunch. I thought to myself, ”Now here is someone I can learn from….or at the very least, get some good pizza from!”

Time passed and I followed the photos of Jen’s pizzas on her Instagram. The ingredients she used were so unique and I was impressed by her commitment to improve this pizza making craft. I asked if I could come over on a Friday night and watch her work her magic.

When I arrived at the Levin home, Jen had the dough ready and ingredients prepped. She had made the dough the night before and let it rise overnight. I always thought pizza dough had to rise in the oven or in a warm place, but this is not necessary. As long as the dough stays room temperature and you don’t live in a really cold house, it should be fine. The crust recipe Jen uses is just flour, water, salt, and yeast. She buys her flour in a 50lb bag from Cosettas market in St Paul. That bag of flour lasts her 6 months. She says that she gets a lot of funny looks and questions when she comes in asking for that amount of flour.

Jen has a large family so she usually makes at least 6 pizzas at a time. As I watched her, she made it look so easy. She tossed each circle of dough into the air, fashioning it into a crust.

There were a few things that surprised me. One, was how simple the red sauce was. Just whole tomatoes from a can and spices. Two, she didn’t pre-cook her sausage. She put it on the pizza raw. The high temperature of the broiler cooks the sausage throughout in a matter of minutes. There is no need to pre-cook the meat.

This is Jen’s favorite cookbook where she gets her crust recipe and inspiration for toppings. My Pizza by Jim Lahey.

This pizza was 1/2 thinly sliced apple, garlic butter, and cheddar cheese and 1/2 onion, rosemary, pistachios, and grated parmesan.
This one was more of a traditional supreme with pepperoni, sausage, green olives, and mozzarella. My favorite pizza of the night was one with goat cheese, sausage, mushrooms, and olives. I decided I am definitely a fan of goat cheese (something I would never think to try on my own)

The trickiest part of the pizza making, in my opinion, is the baking. Jen uses the broiler setting on her oven. She puts one pizza in the bottom broiler drawer and another on the bottom shelf of the oven. Then she rotates them a couple minutes into the cooking process. The bottom broiler cooks the bottom crust and the top oven finishes browning the top of the pizza

This is the ”peel” she uses to take the pizzas out of the oven. I need to get myself one of these.

I asked Jen about her inspiration for pizza making. She said some of the best pizza she ever ate was in Sicily while living there with her family for 3 months. Restaurants in Italy wouldn’t typically open until 8pm and they had little kids with bedtimes. They found a place close to their apartment that opened at 7pm and it became a favorite spot.

During our pre-dinner chat, there were also stories of a New York City pizza she ate once after a run in the rain, and ”the best pizza ever” with her sister at Pizza Bianco in Phoenix, AZ.

Why every Friday night?

As I watched this labor of love unfold (the whole process took close to two hours) I wondered to myself if the time and effort was worth it. Why not just order take out?

It became clear as I watched Jen making those pizzas, that this was important to her and to her family.
She told me that this is something everyone loves and something they look forward to.   She enjoys getting people together, and the laid back atmosphere of chatting while the pizzas are coming out of the oven, one by one. “I love good food and I love making it for people and with people,” she says.

Upon tasting the final product, all my questions faded away. This pizza, made with love, was an incredible gift and a creative expression from the chef.

Jen’s longterm goal is to have her own food truck. I hope that this can become a reality.

I’ll be first in line to order!

“I’ll have the sausage, olives, mushrooms, and goat cheese.”


My Love for You

My love for you is not dependent on 

Getting good grades

Winning a contest 

Looking a certain way

Being popular

Getting a driver’s license 

Having friends

Graduating

Going to college

My love for you is not dependent on 

Your gender identity

Your sexual orientation

The state of your mental health

The state of your physical health

What religion you choose or don’t choose 

Your social status or wealth 

My love for you will not change if

You get cancelled on the Internet

Arrested

Suspended

Fired

Pregnant 

Or need to move back home someday 

***

My love for you is not dependent on

If you marry

If you have children 

If you live close by or far away


***

You are not a disappointment to me.  

I may be disappointed in circumstances

Or my shattered expectations

I may be surprised by things you say 

Or frustrated with how things turn out 

I may hurt if you are hurting 

And get angry and want to blame 

I may say things I regret 

I may even make you feel like you are

A disappointment

But, you’re not.  

***

My love for you will always remain

For as long as I breath, you are my child

You cannot earn this love

You cannot change this love

You cannot lose this love 

This love for you is fierce

And it’s never going away

Artist Spotlight – Johanna Franey

In 2022, I’m going on a hunt for midlife creatives from here, there, and everywhere. I want to pick their brain about their area of expertise, how they got started, and what inspires them.

The first artist I got the chance to talk to was Johanna Franey from Morris, MN. Johanna owns and operates her own baking business called Creative Confections. Her Instagram page @creativeconfectionsmorris is overflowing with photos of unique cakes, cupcakes, and macarons she has made. I wanted to find out how this interest in baking cakes got started and how she finds time to make such masterpieces while juggling all of her other mom responsibilities. Johanna is married to John, a homeschool mom of four kids ages 5, 7, 9, and 11, and also a piano teacher of 25 students a week. As a mom and piano teacher myself, we had a lot of things in common to talk about. My husband and I also went to college in Morris, MN and lived there for 5 years after getting married, so we have that small town connection as well. Here are a few bits and pieces of my conversation with Johanna.

Q. Have you always considered yourself an artist?

A. No, not at all. In fact sometimes I still doubt when people tell me I’m creative. When I was 14, I was on a trip in Washington, DC and my mom gave me a camera and asked me to take some photos. She looked at them and told me “these are pretty good”. From then on, I started taking an interest in photography. I also played the piano and was in plays, but would not have called myself an artist.

Q. When did you start making cakes?

A. There was a group of young adults that were getting together at church and we would have treats afterwards. One of the young college girls would always bring these gorgeous baked goods and I admired them and thought, “I’d better up my game”. My competitive nature is what got me baking. I started baking for fun in 2014 with 3 young kids under my feet. I dabbled in it for about 4 years and then got licensed with the state in 2018. I didn’t have any formal training, I just learned by doing. People would come to me with an idea for a cake and I would figure out how to make it. There was a lot of trial and error at first and a few big flops where I had to start over, but also a lot of successes that made me feel really proud of myself.

Q. What does a typical week look like for you?

A. I homeschool my kids in the morning and then afternoons are spent teaching piano lessons during the school year. I don’t teach piano during the summer, so that is my busier time for baking. I bake for the Morris farmers market and also fill special orders for birthday and wedding cakes. During the school year, I bake on weekends unless I’ve scheduled to take a weekend off.

Q. Do you ever get burnt out?

A. I did have a time when I took on too much and needed to take a month off to rest. After that, I started setting clearer boundaries for myself and saying no if a request didn’t fit with the needs of my family. One thing many people don’t realize is how physically strenuous baking can be. There are some weekends when I can be on my feet for 18 hours. I have learned the importance of stretching, getting massages, and having down time. One of the tensions in owning your own business is learning to set limits and stick with them. Saying no to customers for the good of my family has been a lesson I’ve been learning.

Q. Do you ever doubt yourself?

A. I like to remind myself that when someone is ordering a cake from me, they aren’t just doing it because they want to be nice. They actually like my cakes and many are repeat customers. Whenever I start comparing myself to other bakers who are further along than I am, I stop and remind myself of the progress I have made.

Q. What do you do for self care?

A. I do find the baking itself as self care. It’s a creative outlet and I have something beautiful at the end to show for my time. Learning how to say no to customers has been a valuable skill that I’ve been able to use in other areas of my life as well. I also like to switch things up when I’m tired of baking, and write poems or taking photos of nature.


You can see more of Johanna’s creations on Facebook and Instagram at Creative Confections. The photos shared here on this post are some of her favorites. When asked why, Johanna says:

“I’m proud of the cakes pictured here (other than the wedding cake) because I didn’t copy from a concept photo. I just had an idea in my head and was able to create them. I’m proud of the wedding cake because I had to re-do the middle (marbled) tier three times to get it right, and I was so frustrated and stressed, but pushed through and was finally able to make it work.”

Thanks Johanna, for sharing your art with me. One of the things that stood out to me most from our conversation was how much you have grown as a businesswoman in such a short time. I resonated with how you are learning to define clearer boundaries, understand your limits, and prioritize your marriage and family time so you don’t take on more than you can handle. I was also reminded of the importance of positive and encouraging voices in the lives of young artists. Your mom encouraged you to start taking photographs and even though that didn’t end up being a long term business, it was an important step in your creative journey. I love how you are holding all things loosely and realize that this baking business may not be forever, but it is a good fit for now. I know your cakes have brought a lot of delight to many celebrations. I look forward to seeing more of your work and watching you grow as a wife, mom, friend, and artist. It’s a joy to know you!

A Brush with Self Care

As a nurturing mother, oldest child, and natural born helper, I didn’t give self care much thought until about 5 years ago. I didn’t have a clear understanding of the word.

I thought Self care = Selfish and I had been taught clearly from childhood that being selfish was bad. I still remember clearly the Sunday School song:

“Put Jesus first and Others second and put Yourself at the end of the line, And you will find true Joy in your life through J-O-Y. I loved that song. I lived it with great pride.

Then, I spent 12 years as a full-time stay at home mom with no time to myself. Add a few major life challenges and finding out I was pregnant with baby #4, and I reached major burn-out.

Over time, the realization came that I was not feeling the least bit joyful. I resented never speaking up for myself and always giving up my needs for everyone else. Through some therapy, I realized that I had lived my life treating everyone else kindly, but not being kind to myself – At All.

I have begun thinking of this topic of self care as Self Kindness

Love is Kind. I cannot truly love the people in my life unless I love myself. I began giving myself permission to rest from always caring for the needs of others. I had to figure out what was restful and then make time for it”

As a young mom, I remember coming to the end of a day after the kids had finally fallen asleep and the house was quiet, and thinking “Now, I can FINALLY rest” . I’ve earned it!!” I defined rest as a small compartment reserved for when the work was done.

Life can be hard. Really hard. There were days and weeks and years when the urgent drowned out the important in my life, and the only break I got was 5 minutes in the bathroom with the door closed. Self care for me started with a decision. I would make a daily choice to be kind to myself and at times that would mean saying no to the demands of others.

I have been gradually adding daily practices that have helped me find rest. *Candle light *Journaling *Drinking coffee *Walking *Going outside in nature *Turning off my phone *Time with friends *Reading *Smiling and making funny faces at myself in the mirror.

After intentionally trying to be more kind to myself for the past 5 years, I have noticed something. I call it a Brush with Self Care. Imagine a paint with water picture. The brush dipped in the water symbolizes self care. When you take the time to dip your brush and apply it to the pages of your life, you will begin to see colors emerge. The colors are the hidden talents, the things you never knew you loved, and the gifts that have been hiding in plain sight.