Midlife Creative

When I see parents posting first day of school pictures of their kids with smiling faces heading off to school, I can’t help but think of the kids like mine, who found the school environment incredibly challenging.

My oldest has overcome a multitude of obstacles and is facing college head on this year, but it has not been easy. School has always been exhausting for Ellie, as someone on the autism spectrum. Bright fluorescent lights, noise, timed tests, confusing social interactions with peers, and the never ending feeling of being over stimulated. As parents, we wish our kids felt more at home in the world – and in the schools that are designed to fit some kids, but not all kids.

For those with ADHD, autism, sensory processing issues, anxiety, and other challenges, school can be extremely difficult. I remember looking around at parents of the “normal” kids in those smiling back to school pictures and thinking “they have no idea how easy they have it”. Nobody told us in the childbirth and early childhood classes how hard this would be. The formulas in the parenting books just don’t work for us. We’ve tried, believe me.

If you are a parent of an atypical child, I’m thinking of you as I see the back to school pics being posted. You want your kid to fit in, or at the very least, have someone to sit with at lunch. You want to shield them from embarrassment and pain. You want them to not just survive, but thrive. You want them to be themselves and be embraced for who they are.

Many teens like mine have found ways to cope in this world through therapy, medicine, and finding community with others who are like them.

If you are a young parent, worried about your child being different and not knowing where to turn, I know that feeling. I’ve been there. I remember having another parent tell me that their 1st grader could not be friends with my first grader because my child “couldn’t control themselves”. That hurt. I have also been in social situations where my child was having a meltdown and a roomful of people were staring at me as I helplessly stood there, not knowing what to do.

Parenting these amazing, unique kids is challenging, confusing, and overwhelming at times. I know you are doing your best and you are your child’s biggest cheerleader. I applaud you and encourage you to take a break and look after yourself. It’s gonna be ok. School is hard for kids like ours. Sometimes we get tired and pull them out, because it’s easier than seeing them suffer in an environment where their needs are not understood. Other times, we keep them in school and advocate for them, finding accommodations that help them to do their best. No kid is alike and there is no ready made solution. It is just plain hard, and I see that now more than ever.

My hope in writing this is for at least one parent of an atypical child to know they are not alone. If you have a friend who you know is struggling to understand their child and the challenges of school, reach out to them and listen. An understanding friend can make a world of difference for a parent who feels alone.

This photo of Ellie brings me joy. It communicates the life and joy that Atypical kids bring into the world. They are intense, sensitive, persistent, and we love them for it.